I apologize for all of the angsty posts, but if you want to know what’s going on in my life right now…
For those of you unaware, I moved to Canada this past December to go to university and to be able to be with my incredible girlfriend Leah. After months of long-distance dating prior to my move, we thought we had finally escaped the confines of distance when I was accepted for my study permit. Consequentially, I have been attempting to obtain a Canadian work permit since February in hopes that I would be able to earn some money over the summer to help pay for my tuition. Up until today, I had been operating under the assumption that my work permit was being processed and would be here at the latest before June. Imagine my surprise, then, when I was informed that I am not eligible to work in Canada on a student-work permit until I’ve been a full-time student for six months. Keep in mind that a term in university is four months here. So basically, I cannot work over the summer which is forcing me to return to Arizona so that I can earn enough money to live on by the time the fall term starts up.
And I feel like my entire life is falling apart.
I don’t want to leave.
I don’t want to have to go back to falling asleep on Skype because I can’t curl up with her in her bed. I don’t want to have to go back to sending packages in the mail because I can’t give her little gifts in person. I don’t want to have to go back to going weeks without seeing her smiling face. I don’t want to have to imagine what it would be like to be able to kiss her at any given moment.
I know this may seem melodramatic, but I can’t help that I feel this way right now.
TL;DR - Immigration is fucked and I have to go back to Arizona for the summer, leaving my girlfriend in a different country for the third time and long distance is really fucking hard when you’ve had months to adjust to life together.